Living Life in Quiet Desperation

God knows what I'm going through...
and it's nice to read answers...


On this day of your life, Christine, we believe God wants you to know ... that you are perfect as you are.

God doesn't create faulty life. No. Everything created by God is perfect, and so are you. So stop driving yourself mad with endless ways to improve, and just accept the glory of your being as is.

You know how people get back to consciousness after getting resuscitated?
I wonder when I'd get that sound of getting that first breath of air
And feeling alive again...

I'm getting that sense that maybe I should be more careful with my heart
cause no one else would take care of it
you can give it to them to hold it
but only you can catch it and keep it from breaking

Howcome my life always has to take the backseat?
When will it be about me?
Not me in terms of the situation...
It can get exhausting you know
But I guess you just rant and go on, and just keep on going

When will I find those moments when I could feel alive again?
And when will I have those sweet beginnings?
I want so much for life to give me those things...
And let me feel that it can be kind as well...

I'm sick... I feel sick and I feel like I'd get even sicker tomorrow
When the going gets tough, it's nice to retreat
Colds and fever can be nice at times
When you suddenly feel that just want to take a break
And be lucky enough, in a way or another, to have just the right excuse to do so

On this day of your life, Christine, we believe God wants you to know ... that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step.

You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

On this day of your life, Christine, we believe God wants you to know ... that you will feel better if you notice the sweetness of life.

Notice the smiles of children, the songs of the birds, the caress of the sun's warmth. This sweetness is for you. Allow it to soothe your soul and bring a smile to your face.

I sometimes want to be told that great things are to come
At times, I just need some kind of a reassurance that it will be okay
Cause in times of your life when you hear that guitar strumming and everything's in slow motion
You somehow feel like moments are passing too soon, yet you feel every single second of it
Cause you need something to look forward to, more than just what is...
And you want to believe that God has stored something great in your will be

Reality checks can really keep you grounded...
But when you just hit cloud 9,
damn the fall can really hurt
and it again makes you feel all the things that you fear
the what really is can make you really feel insecure
somewhat...

Sometimes you start the day in the most daunting way
and end it with great hopes inside

Good morning world :D

Ironic, or rather miraculous how God answers me through facebook... Somehow it can really be reassuring


On this day of your life, Christine, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's time you stopped hiding from life, and said yes to the adventure of being alive.

Enough of the routine already. Go on, have an adventure, - do what you always wanted deep within your heart. Do what brings you alive, and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.

Sometimes it can get frustrating
And really embarrassing
Not so much to other people
Cause hell, they don't really know much
There's this inner shame with the situation
Making you hate it...
Or torn to want it or forget it

Tonight I asked my friend to remind of moments like these...
that life can be good and simple
for in times such as this I feel that anything is possible
and the pluralities of life feel so far away

When moments are shared through genuine friendships,
they become worth remembering
and telling
even when there's nothing much to tell
except for the beauty of life and lives that you share it with

......zzzZZZzzz......
dreaming and dreaming some more
that one day it can happen,
that it will happen

Strange sometimes how one waits for something that may never come
And strange how at times one hopes for something that would only crush her
Elphaba said to not wish for it would only wound your heart
Cause hoping does entail your heart believing for the possibility of him coming
And the hope only survives with that tinge of optimism

When you've lived your life in quiet desperation long enough...
It makes your heart wild that nothing could contain the frustration anymore
Nothing makes a man crazier than the charade of lies that life imposes

...I do know that it's you that I want that much...

You know that moment in the movies when one suddenly realizes that he's changed forever?
That that person has made or destroyed him for good... in just a few seconds, one's life is all or nothing


By Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova


I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

There's a certain kind of release that neither brings pleasure nor pain...
Only peace within...
And more heart to love again...

I've seen how hatred can destroy someone more than it destroys the object of their hate...
It's a lesson I've learned that I will never unlearn
For I will not ever seal my fate by destroying anyone